Poets are so 1969.

Now this is fun, no? Oliveiro?

On Tuesday Night:
Alwyn accidently send a romantic text message that was meant for his girlfriend to me instead.

- 3 days later, 2.24pm -

Alwyn: Hey what time are you working today, early right?
Rudy: Ya, 5. You?
Alwyn: Lol..
Rudy: what time are you working?
Alwyn: not as early as you??
Rudy: this is lame. haha.
Alwyn: and i bet you didnt sleep. Working at 6 la…
Rudy: haha i did i did. crap la, going to work so early. sigh.
Alwyn: Thought you were working at 6. Wanted to ask you for dinner.
Rudy: aw arent you sweet. ive been thinking about the message you sent me that day. you’re right baby. nothing will break us apart and no, cant do dinner today. haha.
Alwyn: I knew you would haunt me with that joke sooner or later!
Rudy: i know. that’s the best part of our friendship. you do something dumb and i make fun of it. we function well that way.

R.Diddy goes “black” on Pearera!

Laura says:
sup

Rudy says:
suppppppppppp
yo
sup
sup yp
yo
word.

Laura says:
dot.

Rudy says:
haha
okay im just gonna attempt to talk “black”
right now
in our conversation
okay starting from now

Laura says:
hopefully i’ll be able to follow

Rudy says:
yo nigger, you best be followin’ cause the river dont shine. ya kno what im sayin’
dawg
river no shine baby
yo you dig?
holla back yo. yo you goin silent on me dawg?
now why you lik that
yo why you like that

Laura says:
i phail at being a “black” chic

Rudy says:
right

Laura says:
but you can carry on

Rudy says:
imma gonna let you in on a secret

Laura says:
i’ll just talk normally
oooo gossip

Rudy says:
cause you and me
we click
oh we click good
so yea
listen good baby
causse imma only gonna say it once
like once
yo those black chics all talking black and all
it aint hot baby

Laura says:
but they are black chics they have to talk that way
its in their bloood

Rudy says:
yo those bitches are crazzzzie baby
nah it aint
nuh huh
they faking it
baaaby

Laura says:
such fakers.
they are tryin’ to be like you

Rudy says:
yo u took out words right from ma mouth. yo
baaaaby, right from my MOUTH!
from the cavity and shit, yall’
yo its like
you used a ma’fuckin dental floss yo
you floss that nigger out of me
ya hear

Laura says:
hahahaahhaha

Rudy says:
floss it out
owned

Laura says:
your full of nonsense la.

Fisherman’s Island.

Rudy says:
“hey do you wanna go to the goatee?”
see?
so easy

Mariko says:
so stupid!!

Rudy says:
.

Mariko says:
see we’re already not agreeing
pisces
lol

Rudy says:
yes im a fish.
“haha” yes very funny
go ahead

g
o

a
h
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a
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be sarcastic

Mariko says:
no
we’re opposite signs man

Rudy says:
OH

Mariko says:
and apparently that doesnt work
hahahahha
im not

Rudy says:
what are you? a fisherman?
haha man i crack myself up.
okay nevermind
wasnt that funny

Mariko says:
yourself.
im a virgo
hahaha

Rudy says:
HAHA
okay
hahahah
im laughing about the fisherman now
hahah

Mariko says:
enjoy that
lol
youre so stupid sia!!!
omg man

Rudy says:
hahahahaha
im so sorry
i dont know, i just started laughing
it just sinked in entirely
i pictured a man with a harpoon
fisherman
hahaha
get it?
a fish
and we cant get along’
cause like
you;re a fisherman
..

Mariko says:
im not a fisherman
if i was id be a fisherwoman
are you gonna laugh about that too?
haha
your sense of humor is so weird sia

Rudy says:
okay that
was
so
not
funny
there, what do you think about my sense of humor now
haha
hey that pisces, fisherman thing was quick humor okay
scroll up and read it
again
haha

Rudy Rudy Rudy vs Kathleen Bodestyne

Dammit, so now i have to put extra effort just to learn something and annoy her with it and piss her off too. Sigh, damn. It’s not gonna be fun anymore. Well, in any case, if you’re lost - here’s what happened yesterday.

Kat: Hey romeo, you going class today?

Rudy: Haha yes i am, my favorite classmate. You? I’m gonna be fashionably late though.

Kat: Haha.. as always. you just love making grand entrances don’t you?

Rudy: Haha yes i do. dont really plan on it though but it alwaaaaays turns out that way. Watch me charm everyone when i enter the class later. haha.

I know what to bug you next with. Autonomic system and the endocrine system. particularly with, the parasympathetic and the sympathetic system and the hypothalamic pituitary adrenal pathway.

Kat: Oh really? so you mean like now you making my sympathetic nervous system all agitated?

Rudy: .. Crap. okay fine. ill find something else that you don’t know.

Kat: Rotflmao! Happy finding…

Rudy: Bit…c.. (okay calm down rudy. calm down)

Kat: Wahahaha.. Looks like your parasympathetic system is not doing its job huh? ;)

Kathleen Bodestyne vs The Correlation Method.

• Okay basically, i was watching this movie called 'Arachnophobia' and there was this scene about this guy explaining a brain neurotransmitter called 'GABA' (Gamma-Aminobutyric Acid) and this was the MSN conversation i had with kat. Bear in mind, i've been annoying her with something we learned in class for weeks now. Introducing, the correlation method!
• Rudy says:
• omg
• Kat says:
• but marks are minused everyday
• Rudy says:
• part 9 of the movie
• Kat says:
• i cant have that
• Rudy says:
• the guy said
• "kris im scared to death"
• Kat says:
• ah huh
• Rudy says:
• "we all are but our brain secretes a neurotransmitter that enables us to deal with it"
• hahaha
• isnt that
• GABA!
• ?!
• Kat says:
• ok...thats it!
• Rudy says:
• hahahah
• Kat says:
• if its not gaba its correlation
• Rudy says:
• hahah its not correlation
• correlation is a study of 2 variables
• Kat says:
• bye rudy
• Rudy says:
• HAHAHAHAH
• hahahahahahahah
• i gotta blog this
• i swear
• annoying you with correlation is getting more fun by the week.

Dear father, If only you knew what happened that day, you would know that i love you.

Paralyzed with sadness, i remember looking out the window gazing at every movement made within my vision. The leaves were dancing, people were walking and the birds were flying. Mesmerized by this state of awareness, i remember hearing birds chirping and the rushed footsteps made by people passing by. Only then it registered in my head that it was going to rain soon. i looked up at the blue sky that was turning dark by the second and as tears rolled down my face, i was quickly snapped and brought back to reality. All that was left in my mind was the phonecall i received earlier on from my sister. “Boy, dad has passed away”.

I knew i needed to get down to the hospital where my father was as quickly as possible. I just needed to see him again, i needed to believe it with my own eyes. Call it “denying reality” if you will. I just didn’t want to believe that i’ll never get to see him smile ever again. I shut the window and grabbed my house keys. As i walked to the front door, i couldn’t help but to turn my head and look into my dad’s bedroom. At this point, my sense of missing him grew uncontrollably in a instant. Memories of him were playing like a movie in my head and they all led to tragic conclusion of awareness that all these will be nothing more than just memories from now on.

I left my house, paced as fast as i could completely forgeting that it was gonna rain soon. With no umbrella in hand and feeling cold by the strong wind that was blowing, i stood by the side of the road hoping to flag a taxi cab; the quickest means of transportation that i knew of and within 15 minutes i arrived at the hospital where my father, a patient of liver failure, laid.

While standing outside his room, the sound of my heartbeat was all i could hear. I felt like my entire surrounding was in mute. I knew the moment that i was not ready for, is here. Do you know how it feels like to stand behind a door knowing that when you open that door, you are going to walk into a room whereby you are going to stand there and watch the one you love lay breathless before you?.

With all the strength left in me, i turned the knob and entered the room and there he was laying peacefully next to my mom and my sister. That day, i lost a father and also a part of myself.

In my defense, my story was awesome okay.

• Rudy Rudy Rudy: haha. are you sleeping?
• Priscilla: On my bed alr!!
• Rudy Rudy Rudy: Haha. Okay. Shall i tell you a bed time story?
• Priscilla: No you'll cause a nightmare!
• Rudy Rudy Rudy: Hey im a excellent story teller okay. haha. please please? ill tell you one over text msg.
• Priscilla: K!
• Rudy Rudy Rudy: Okay are you under your blanket?
• Priscilla: Yeap
• Rudy Rudy Rudy: Okay. Once upon a time ...
• Priscilla: Nice...
• Rudy Rudy Rudy: (Are you asleep yet...?)

In my defense, the game was awesome for awhile okay.

• Rudy Rudy Rudy:
• dude, play this game man. "king of kungfu"
• Alwyn Oliveiro:
• king of kung fu?
• fb applicaton..?
• Rudy Rudy Rudy:
• yeaaa
• dude brb
• Alwyn Oliveiro:
• alright
• Rudy Rudy Rudy:
• i sent you a facebook invite for it
• its a fun game!
• Alwyn Oliveiro:
• how to play dude..
• i dont know the controls
• Rudy Rudy Rudy:
• you cant control it
• ...
• just watch...
• Alwyn Oliveiro:
• haha.. now you say...
• i been pressing every button on my keyboard
• Rudy Rudy Rudy:
• omg noob
• hahah
• Alwyn Oliveiro:
• then whats the purpose if i cant control
• i rather watch tv...!
• haha
• Rudy Rudy Rudy:
• just watch the battle....
• Rudy Rudy Rudy:
• its more a viewing pleasure kinda game
• hahahhaah
• watch tv
• hahahahha
• Alwyn Oliveiro:
• ok.. how about porn
• its viewing pleasure right?
• Rudy Rudy Rudy:
• oh yea. thats always a viewing pleasure man
• Alwyn Oliveiro: haha
• - 16 hours later -
• Rudy Rudy Rudy:
• the game sucks man. its so boring now. im gonna watch tv.
• Alwyn Oliveiro:
• wow..!! it took you that long..!! wtf rudy wtf!!!

Child out of wedlock, my moment for difference.

“Me n my 2yr old daughter looking for a place just
to sleep & bath. will only occupied ard 8pm-6am Mon-Fri. not necessary to be fully furnished as long there’s bed/mattress & fan” - online ad by a single mother looking for an apartment.

“Four year jail for single mother who robbed, is it a harsh penalty?” - online article.

“Can children thrive without a father figure?” - online article.

“Make sure your children – especially boys – have positive and consistent male role models (such as your partner; a grandparent, godparent, close family friend or teacher” - online article.


Reading all these just makes me realize how lucky it feels to be breathing and standing where i am right now. Thousands, perhaps millions of children probably gets aborted each year and i could have been one of them and while having escape from that harsh reality, the most horrid thing that ever happened to me was just given away at birth by my real mother which today, when i think about it, was perhaps the first gift or the best start for a chance to have something close to a normal life cause if that didn’t happen, i wouldn’t be who i am today and i wouldn’t have known and love the 3 single people in my life who took me back from that family, put a roof above my head and raised me.

Of course, no matter how beautiful a paradise may seem, nothing lasts forever and it doesn’t take much to change that to a land of struggling hope. Growing up wasn’t easy and when everyone had a last name, i didn’t. I made up an excuse every time someone asked me why i didn’t have a surname or what my surname was and when everyone had a father, i didn’t. I don’t even know how he looks like, though i’m pretty sure he’s black since my real mother is fair.

My grandfather who is a father figure to me fell very ill when i was very young. He barely speaks or recognizes me now cause of his condition. The only memories i have of him now are of how i would cheat on a game of checkers with him and boy, he’ll get so pissed, he would just stop playing with me. Haha, oh and there are a few games of blackjacks as well. In fact, he was the one who thought me how to write my name on this book that i had about some horse i think, i can barely remember the book.

Speaking of books .. i still owe National Library a book titled “Life of a potato”. I swear i’m not making this up, i got a letter from them asking me to return the book which was borrowed like centuries ago and i meant centuries ago cause like the borrowed date, dates all the way back to god knows when and you know what the best part is? i have no memory of ever borrowing this book which is expected i guess since i was really young.

Its amazing that i don’t remember that but somehow or  rather i have some memory of times i lied whenever  someone asked “how come your sister is so much older  than you?” or made a joke just to throw people off or  manipulate the seriousness of that question. I could  never tell the truth that my sister is really my aunt.  Even till today, i still think of her as my blessed sister.

My grandmother, where do i begin? there aren’t any  words to describe how selfless you are. you always put  others before you and you have always put my needs  above yours and even though i don’t open up to you  and may appear all hard and tough on the outside, you  were clearly the person that i learned alot from. Without you, i wouldn’t have learned compassion and making sacrifices no matter how painful they are for someone just so they would be happy.

I still remember till today of how proudly you told me the story of this random strange man who came up to you and looked at me, a mere baby and he said that this boy will grow up to be someone someday. someone huge, someone famous. Just knowing that made me feel important, it gave me a drive to my passion in things i cared about and it also gave me a drive to treat people that mattered, important.

Maybe when i said that i live to write something that changes one’s life, maybe i was just trying to change mine as well.

Writing it all down so i’ll remember what i went through in hope that if others read it they wouldn’t make the same mistake as i did. Analyzing the events in my head and thinking about it so i could help others so they won’t feel what i felt.

Well, mother. father. despite your absence. I’m still okay.

I am here today breathing cause of 3 single people, i may not be perfect or turn out how you wanted me to be, i may have made alot of mistakes but i want you to know that someday, i’ll make it up for everything. I’ll be your biggest pride and no matter how beautiful a paradise may seem and even though nothing lasts forever and it doesn’t take much to change it to a land of struggling hope, i’ll let you know that it was because of you, there was even hope to begin with.

Thank you for saving me from becoming history, I hope every child out of wedlock or those who have no parents be blessed like how i was.

Women live longer than men because we, (men) are naturally idiots.

As much as i would like to disagree, i’m afraid i can’t on this one. Every one of us (men) have a different level of “idiotness” gauge build in us and that’s! what separates us. So if you’re reading this .. yes, YOU! .. your best guy friend is probably a bigger moron than you. You just don’t know it yet.

73% of the time, a man’s problem isn’t that serious compared to a woman’s problem and its not like we don’t haveeeeeee a life or we got nothing elseeeeee better to do.

It’s just that .. well .. we find certain things amusing or a problem to us that women are just not meant to understand it sometimes and do you know what the worse part is? - we would share it with you at the wrong time. (Except, we don’t know that its the wrong time to share.)

SO! with that said, here’s a MSN conversation between a man and woman. So bare in mind people ..

THIS IS ONE OF THE REASON WHY ..




Yasmeen says:
something really weird happened..
Rudy says:
oh what
you dreamt about me in your sleep
Yasmeen says:
there was this lady, she saw me and liked me. so she wen and enquire about me to my aunt
asking if i am married and all..
Rudy says:
oh
Yasmeen says:
and she said.. “i really like her, i would like her to meet my son.”
Rudy says:
i knew it
Yasmeen says:
my aunt only told me at the end of the day
Rudy says:
its creepy. arranged marriages
i mean
Yasmeen says:
yea
Rudy says:
it should be about 2 people falling in love with each other because they wanna be around each other. NOT try to fall in love or make things work because you have to.
That just defeats the purpose of marriage
Yasmeen says:
yea totally
Rudy says:
i saw a guy with a really fat head
okay its not as good as your story
but still
i really did see one today
it was huge. the kind that could strike fear in you if he’s staring at you.

A constant battlefield.

I haven’t been the same since it all began.

I pretend to be happy only because i’m tired of accepting and dealing with a reality that im still denying.

I pretend to be happy because i don’t want to burden anyone with what’s going on in my mind and how i’m feeling inside.

I sleep my days away so i don’t have much time being awake to think about what happened.

I sleep in my dad’s room to feel closer to him.

I’m losing my mind and i don’t really know what to do to stop.

I feel alone.

I’m afraid to talk about it.

I don’t want to deal with it even though i know very well that the only way i can get over this is by facing it.

I haven’t been in a peaceful state of mind and i’m starting to forget how that feels like.

I’m tired of staying strong. Always. Can i, for once, just simply give up?

There’s so much on my mind. I wanna stop thinking for once.

Dear you, a human’s life has both, a beginning and a ending and its what we do in between that start and that end, that people around you will adore/love/care/respect you for and when the time comes, you will be led to your end and this will be the part where the ones that you have made an impact on, the ones that you leave behind will remember and cry for you for as long as they live.

Rudy vs Louiza aka "The Confuse-er!" vs "The Don't Like to Confuse People-er!"

• Rudy says:
• do you know why bunnies hop?
• Louiza Starr says:
• why
• Rudy says:
• cause someone thought that if they walked on 2 legs, it would be weird
• now we just gotta find that 'someone'
• Louiza says:
• hahahahhaa
• i'll be that someone for u
• Rudy says:
• no, you're not godly enough
• haha
• even though you go to church more than my mom does
• Louiza says:
• hahahaa
• FINEE
• but i wanna be that someone
• i dont care
• i am that someone
• Rudy says:
• you cant self proclaim yourself like that. its frowned upon
• its not something that
• 'someone' does
• if 'someone' does something like that then it would be wrong for that 'someone' to be a 'someone' cause 'someone' wouldn't do something like that
• Louiza says:
• oh
• you're so smart arent u
• haha
• Rudy says:
• wait why?
• Louiza says:
• in one sentence, u made me doubt my ability to understand the word "someone"

My Favorite 'J' in Jazz (Justin Mendoza). The Prank Call.

• Justin: Dude, can pass me the number to odiocrib studio?
• Rudy: 63379006
• Justin: What about backbeats studio? You have it?
• Rudy: 83**2**4
• Justin: Dude, wrong number man. haha.
• Rudy: Yea, You just called Alwyn (Our colleague)
• Justin: Haha. Are you fucking serious?
• Rudy: Haha yes. The two of you are really stupid. Didn't even recognize each other.
• Justin: Haha. idiot. well deserved repercussion. Fierce indeed. (Our inside joke)
• Rudy: 96775539
• You have no idea how long i've waited to do that to someone.
• Justin: Wrong number again la bitch!
• Rudy: Huh really? Hold on.
• That's the only number listed here.
• Justin: Haha. Kidding, its correct.
• Rudy: Ohhhhh and Mendoza strikes back. Well played, my friend.